Breast Cancer and My Great Awakening

About three years ago I found a lump in my breast. The world stopped for me. Deep down I knew what it was. I also had several symptoms leading up to that finding. Signs were coming from my physical body, screaming out to me that I needed to change my ways. I kept telling myself I would slow down eventually. My exhaustion wouldn't last forever. I would do for everyone else and I came last. I would stress over my kids, money, family matters and things in the future. Basically stuff I had no control over. It was all too much and things went awry. I was diagnosed with stage 2 breast cancer and chemo was to begin immediately. I was caught in a whirlwind. I wanted it all to slow down. I wanted to do research, get second opinions and maybe even dare I say, beat this myself. That's not what happened. The second opinion at a top hospital for cancer was months away, my family was scared and wanted me to do what the doctors recommended. So, I did.

I was down and out, scared, depressed and just not myself. People that support me and love me were reaching out, I was receiving cards and gifts, love was pouring in but I couldn't feel it. I hated the look of fear in everyone's eyes. I laid in bed crying one morning and my niece who lived with me at the time, came up and said "do you want me to lay with you?" It struck a chord. I needed to get my ass up and live. A friend recommended a book called "Power of the Subconscious mind" by Joseph Murphy, and that was all she wrote. It was like a lightening bolt of hope hit me. I started to hang healing, affirming posters all around the house, I was writing in a journal, dancing to music, walking in nature and healing big time. I happened upon energy medicine, continued acupuncture, massage, Reiki and found many helpful books. I realized that God is within and can take it all on and I just need to surrender and trust that I will heal. That is what I did and continue to do today. There is so much more to my story but I'll save that for another day. I just want you to know that if your facing something that seems insurmountable give yourself a second. Feel the feelings, then rise up and know it will not last forever. You can choose your mindset. Healing takes place if your vibrations are high. I know it sounds crazy to switch on positivity in your scariest or darkest moments but please try. It puts your mind, body and spirit in a much better place for healing and miracles happen everyday. Why not for you?

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